new phone. who dis?
hello guys. allow me to reintroduce myself. my name is HOV. h to the ohveee. kidding. but my name is Sarah, and if you knew me before. you don’t know me now. because i am a brand new b.tch. well, not really but keep up with me because we’re going places with this. why am i acting brand new tho? because i am. thanks to caffeine. emdr therapy. anger. & solitude. baptize me in the waters because it’s a rebirth. & jesus didn’t have his hand on this one. i drove the boat. so let’s get into it.
thru my favorite educational platform. tik tok. i found out that i have adult ADHD. late diagnosis. didn’t impact me as a little girl. \omg. a discovery. life changer. no. i was really diagnosed by my therapist. but the streets of tik tok took me to a land of discovery. we can discuss more of this in the next episode on the chronicles of sarahtonin, but coffee. caffeine queen. is me. and she did her big one in my life. how you ask? because the girlies with ADHD have LOW dopamine levels. we’re not even talking serotonin right now.
symptoms may include: constantly being late. putting things off. i think that’s called procrastination. but what does this all mean? well, low dopamine = less pleasure = less satisfaction. & no motivation. concentration who? gym where? giving the chronicles of Narnia, well.. not Narnia, that my life has been… the math is matching & the sense is making sense. & to get those dopamine levels met when it’s at an an all-time daily low… one may only want to work off of the drug of inspiration. so hard to do things if i don’t feel deeply inspired. omg creative friend is that you too? is that why i have a blog? yikes.lol one may also be conflict-seeking. omg am i the drama?
anxiety. or am i seeking the dope. i mean. the dopamine. this is unconscious behavior btw. so don’t be mad at me. & caffeine has saved the day by providing me the daily dose of dopamine a girl really needs. officially starting the day off on a high so i don’t chase a high. dopamine needs are met. who is sheeeeeee? you don’t know me! like i said. although once upon a time not too long ago, i couldn’t be a coffee girl enjoying her starbeeees. speaking of.. lavender latte with lavender foam. thank me later.
because the nervous system was so dysregulated, coffee gave me supreme gitters. but after taking supplements like gaba plus. she’s regulated. fulfilling her dopamine needs with caffeine instead of dragging men to complete emotional hell. gift me with an expresso machine if you love me. no i’m kidding or am i serious? take a risk and guess. no, but seriously… ya girl has been in her productive bag. setting goals. saying no to my ex to limit the chaos i know it will be. who is she?? is that why my thoughts are hitting this keyboard more often? wow. thank you tik tok. therapy & coffee.
well guys, i feel like this is getting too long. so catch me on the next episode & we will get into the rest. & oh yeah, i cut my hair. cause rip me out the plastic, i been acting brand new. regulated & off the dopamine. support my new coffee habit and cash app me for coffee, boo. not joking. $sarahfreckles