2. Long Distance Heart Love
This two day love affair surprisingly turned into a long distance heart connection. wtf yo. A union held in high reverence disregarding the inconvenience of physical interaction, thanks to the digital age we exist in.
Creativity was truly inspired in this space. Any space with him felt like the comforts of being with myself. I loved treating him the way I treat myself. For me, a sacred space of intimacy lies behind the doors of a bathroom. bath time. a sanctuary where i hear myself the loudest in silence and take time to cleanse my soul. I felt him more than worthy to share that space with. I’m honored by his presence. We agreed to a facetime bath-date (separate baths at our homes on facetime) , given a week or so’s notice because he’s a busy man. So, I took it upon myself to prepare for our special date by ordering herbs, salts, and clay delivered to his home. He was more than delighted to receive them, but also very confused about their purpose. haha it was for our facetime bath-date.
Our first facetime bath-date was scheduled on a Saturday night, just like any other date would be. He chose this date & time which so happened to be the night before my birthday. serendipity or naw? Not to mention, his friend planned a last minute day party for his birthday the same day, but he made sure to keep his promise to me as well. Mind you, we’re on a two hour time difference. So, he took a break from his friend’s birthday party to sit in the bathtub with me for 2 hours and even asked if two hours was an adequate amount of time.
My heart fizzles.My ovaries shake. My spirit flies. Of course it was! I sincerely appreciated that he made this compromise from his heart space. he wanted to stay to true to his own promise. There was no force. No manipulation. No attitude on my end. Out of all the places he could have been, he CHOSE to be at home. in his bathtub. on facetime. with me. miles away. & I could have shared my intimate sacred space with myself - as I always do, but I wanted to share it with him. I believe this is what freedom in love looks like. Choice. Choosing because you want to & sharing the love you have with yourself with someone else.
So we both sat in our perspective tubs, laughing and talking & getting to know each other more. Adorned with clay face masks, we sat with sea salts & boiled loose leaf lavender dancing in the water, as we innocently enjoyed one another’s company from a far, yet so intimately. I swear I saw the little boy in him come out from hiding every time he laughed. He seemed so free in water. Just flying. We were as naked as we could be in the tub. physically. emotionally. and spiritually. Love without boundaries, just like the first day. We were sitting with each other, but we were honestly getting to know ourselves on a deeper level. Mirrors. Read a little Bell Hooks, All About Love.
As the clock struck 12:00 AM, Happy Birthday text messages began to pour in, and this man who my heart adores sung me happy birthday. What a perfect introduction into my new year of life. Sharing an intimate space with someone I love. In my solitude but also with company. How perfect. I woke up to this very beautiful message:
I’m overwhelmed because this is so pure… God damn. How sway is this even real……?